Posts Tagged ‘depression’

#FaceDepression

In the way that the world works, once you open yourself to something, the universe brings more of it to you. I recently wrote about my decision to start getting more involved in mental health advocacy. I contacted JAMHAN and indicated my willingness to participate in their organisation. Around the same time that I did…

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A place for my thoughts

I have written before about writing as therapy. I freely admit that when I stop writing (whether blog posts, poetry, or anything else), I feel something missing. The less I write, the less I feel like writing, which often means I talk even less. I’ve tackled journalling before as part of my approach to dealing…

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What a mess!

So, having chosen my theme for this year, identified the areas of focus (using the circle of life approach) and then done a Year in Review post, I was due to figure out the actual plan for 2015. That was all over a month ago. So what the hell happened?  Suffice to say I had…

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Sure, I’m ok

It’s become easier and easier to just smile and pretend that I’m ok, but I’m not. The fact that I’ve been up since 1 a.m., and have sorted my laundry, prepped some vegetables for cooking and salads, and written in my journal, all by 3 a.m., says that I am not ok. The fact that…

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Writing as therapy

There is no question, to my mind, that writing is a good thing. If you have read much of what I’ve written then you realize how much of myself comes across in my writing. I pour out the feelings and emotions that inspire the writing, whether they be joy, excitement, anticipation, or sorrow, loneliness, despair.…

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The dark before the light

So in my last post, my first in a while, I hinted at some challenges faced over the last several months. Everyone has challenges, and people deal with theirs differently. As I have mentioned before on this blog, I have a diagnosis of clinical depression that I have struggled with for several years. Though I…

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Sometimes you have to just leap

We all grew up hearing… ‘Look before you leap’ ‘Look both ways before you cross the street’ ‘Fools rush in where angels fear to tread’ Sayings like these are designed to keep us from rushing into “dangerous” situations (obviously not necessarily physical danger). But sometimes we take this too literally and start to see trouble…

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One giant leap

The last month has been traumatic, life-changing and ultimately (I hope) empowering. If you have spoken to me recently or even paid attention to my recent tweets then you would have realized that I have made what is essentially the biggest change of my life to date. As of 10 days ago, I live by…

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Scary lonely place

I miss feeling safe and protected. It’s not so much that I think I’m not strong enough and need someone else, I just hate having to do it alone. I’m supposed to be able to let people in and know that I am safe. Know that they will do what they can to not hurt…

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The journey of a thousand miles

Today it begins for real. Here goes. About 6 years ago, I was diagnosed with clinical depression. This was very distressing to me, but it seems to run in my family, though mainly undiagnosed and untreated. I was newly in a relationship, and now faced with medication and therapy. I dealt with it, and found…

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The hardest thing ever

I don’t even know what to say. This month has been one of the hardest ever in my life. I’m close to the edge of… who knows? Trying desperately to hold it together. Sigh. I will be coming back to write though. Some of the stuff I am going through is not totally at my…

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