A much needed fresh start!
“Sometimes the best thing we can ask for is change, and a fresh start forces us to confront change head-on.”
– Natalya Neidhart –
I started my blog back in 2005, when WordPress was still fairly new and blogging was a fresh exciting concept. I was prolific. I shared daily observations about life in general and the things I saw happening around me.
Over the years, my blog morphed but I carried it along with me. I still have every single post I ever wrote. But as life changed, and I wrote less, the weight of my blog continued to bear down on me.
The more I tried to force myself to write, the less I felt like writing. I couldn’t find my why. And now I’ve not written in nearly 3 years.
I recently found myself having to put my entire life on hold as I dealt with some health challenges (more on that in another post). Throughout it all, people kept saying you should blog about this. But I wasn’t there yet.
Where was I? Contemplating the fact that I was effectively going to have to start my life all over. In 8 months, I’ve not been in my apartment, I’ve not been on a date, I’ve not been out to eat. The simple comfortable life I had created for myself is a distant memory.
In previous lives, I have left Jamaica to go live in another country. And each time, I have enjoyed the sensation of starting over. Taking the opportunity to create myself anew in a new place where I am free from my previous incarnation.
I’m still in Jamaica but it seems I have that opportunity now – in a way. While I am surrounded by familiar sights, sounds and faces, I don’t know that I am the same person I was 8 months ago.
This means I have the opportunity to take a fresh look at my life. I can evaluate what activities and people I want to introduce into my new life. I can decide to shape my experiences as if for the first time.
It may sound dramatic, but I do feel like I’ve received the opportunity to get a fresh start. And with that, so does my blog.
My old posts aren’t gone. I couldn’t bring myself to delete them. They are my history, but they needed to take a step back to provide a clean slate. They are now all in The Vault, so I can still refer to them as needed, and reminisce over how much I’ve grown, but they won’t distract from the new beginning.
All this to say, I will be blogging again. Hope you stick around!
About the Author
Bianca is a multi-slash lover of life. techie | wordsmith | photographer | performer | poet